Spent the whole day indoor with writing my thesis today. Today’s writing mode is different, I didn’t feel anxious or suffocated or overwhelmed like yesterday. What did I do differently today?
I didn’t force myself to come up with what to write. I just let things flow freely. Whenever I finished a few paragraphs, I immediately took a break doing dishes, cooking, washing, cleaning, laundry etc, basically the stuffs I have neglected and long to do for weeks already. My house is clean, and my thesis progressing – what’s better than that! I feel like human again. Checked out on my plants, my orchids are growing bigger. Still no signs of flowers, but at least the jasmine tree starts to grow some flower buds.
My Chapter 6 hasn’t finished as planned. Imagine getting asked by my supervisors on why it’s not yet done, and me replying with “because I take care of my mental health first”. Only in dreams. Just a little bit more. I’m gonna ask the DBA coordinator when exactly is the due date. I’m due to submit next week. I’m rooting to finalise everything by Wednesday.
I was craving on pizza so bad today. I looked for strategies to delay my craving. I just drank water and ate lots of guavas. Still feeling the crave for pizza. So I decided to make some baked pasta (using yellow noodles cause I’m out of pasta) with roasted chicken I’ve prepared last week with shredded cheese on top. It was heavenly! Maybe my body needs vitamin B or fat or more protein. I managed to not succumb to my craving and this was huge highlight of my day.
Finished the day with taking out the trash and preparing for tomorrow’s class choreo. My teaching and training shoes are still wet from afternoon wash. So I’m gonna skip morning training tomorrow and catch up in the evening later. Mondays are normally the busiest day of the week for me. Hope I manage to catch some time for my thesis. Gotta rest now and wake up early later. May things go well and peaceful tomorrow.