I was so shocked to receive the news about mama’s passing. I just met her yesterday warded in hospital with family. In her frail condition, she was all well and looked happy. She was one of my favourite aunt. I feel sad but it does not do anything inside me for now. I rarely met her, the last time was during raya a few months back. Even then, she already was bedridden. Didn’t know her condition was gonna escalate further. Lots of fond memories with her as though she was old, she was one of the coolest aunt. I used to sleep over at her house to play with my cousins when I was a kid. And then, during transition after graduating in my 20s when we were taking care for my late grandmother. Afterwards, when I used to sleepover to finish my clothes orders borrowing their sewing machines.
My dad sure is so sad of her demise after the passing of his mother and brother a few years earlier. It just kind of pulled me to my senses that I should not take the elderly for granted. My parents, my grandmother, siblings and family. Family is everything, regardless of they play a significant role or not in my life. The memories, of my existence, all were surrounded with family in different phase of life. At some point, they were caretakers, comforters, nurturers, protectors and a lot more that made the past so beautiful, though temporary.
Mama was a strong woman, cheerful, great and loving grandmother loved by many. When she was younger, I thought, she was so smart and pretty because she worked in a bank. All my prayers to her soul and the family she left behind. May Allah bless her soul. It is humbling me – as I am so busy chasing to live up to my ideal worldly life. Life is so fragile. We don’t know what is going to happen to us next. Death is certain. I pray that Allah guide me so that I am all well-prepared to leave this world when it is time. Not only to make sure that I live my life to its fullest meaning, but also leaving a legacy, continued blessings to others; as well as fulfilling my duty as a servant of Allah. From Allah we come, and to Allah will we return.