Feeling off today, generally worried and anxious. Things that made me feel all stressed out today are:
- Having to get up early to train
- Uncertain if my car gonna behave well tomorrow morning
- Data collection stuff
- Deadlines for paper
- Finance
- He’s being mute again
It’s the attachment again, like I couldn’t relax and I feel the need to hold strong on being on alert mode which is so exhausting. I forgot how to work on this. Detach? And I really need help right now, seems like no one’s willing to help me the way that I need.
Most of the things I am worried about can be changed. Only about him, there’s nothing I can do right now. It’s just so frustrating communicating with him. I don’t know how much longer I could stand this guy’s treatment.
Relax, whatever that is destined for me will be mine.