It’s first day working after long break – thanks for long weekend! I am so burnt out. How did I know? I spent 2 whole days sleeping and relaxing, but I still feel so tired and lazy; like total dysfunction. However, today I managed to do some home organisation – so at least things are moving.
Post-DBA submission, so many things has happened real fast – couldn’t barely sit down and process my feelings. I thought I have slowed down a lot but things still feel too much for me. What recently has happened:
August – Taught for an event organised by KBS for over 20 participants, went to Nuluh Lapai Hill for a hike with the ladies, bought a new phone – yes, I’ve got 2 now, got sponsored to attend a conference, quite a major one – acquainted with 1 person in industry, upgraded some equipment at the gym, used TikTok – my video went viral so I used up a lot of energy with communicating with inquiries back and forth (still am today – tired but thankful), submitted my final DBA thesis draft
Early September – kind of blur, not sure what has happened – I probably just trained my ass out and got a few minor injuries. Started to teach Saturday classes. Dealing with new gym members. Oh yeah, I think I was trying to recover so much as I just discovered on my intolerance on rich chocolate brownies – probably due to so much caffeine. This really took up my energy. My sister (5th sibling) gave birth to a boy! Towards the end, I was racing against time writing paper for a conference to submit by end of September. Along the timeline in the month, I went to visit my client’s office to check on their server and got treated with pizzas and coffee!
October – Finishing that paper for submission and presentation – quite disoriented a bit cause overlapped with Bodypump new release launch and catching up with training. Presented for a conference and awarded best presentation and best paper overall for the conference. Attended physical thesis delivery ceremony with my friends. My sister opened up to me that the siblings are under some mystical attack – you guys, I was so freaked out – but I believed that Allah is always protecting us. I seriously am not sure why I am drained so much this month. And then of course my birthday came, and I had amazing celebration before and during my actual birthdays. I think I have finally solidify my circle of people. We went hiking at Aura Montoria. And then, I celebrated my birthday at my parents’ with my nieces and nephews – I treated them doughnuts and sushi. They are so cute! Now, I am trying to track back and setup the development environment to complete my clients’ system. Learning and planning all the way from zero.
So yeah, so many important occasions have happened that’s worthy of a post. Am I going to be stressed out by this? Probably. I’ll prioritise what I need to do first – rebalance my energy level. I even dug deep assisted by ChatGPT and laid out my schedule together with my suggested nutrition plan. My day-to-day schedule is based on discipline – like I am always running around to meet deadlines and scheduled class times that by the time I need to do important work, I am already depleted to do anything else. I have to balance deep focus work with recovery, training and my physically demanding work.
Also, I shouldn’t be taking so much extra classes – my body is going to crash. It’s good to know that my body goals are on track – however, I still want to lose more fat mass. My muscle mass is reaching 29.7kg now, reaching 30kg. I am doing better with supplements now – just have to watch out my finances so that I won’t overdo it. My body has changed a lot now that I gained so much upper body mass – my sports bra can no longer fit. My coach pointed out to me that my lats are so tight and joked about my clothings – then again, I too sensed that something need to change. I couldn’t fit into my weightlifting belt anymore and it annoys me so much as it’s expensive to buy a new one. Probably I should sell mine should I get another one – remember to buy a size M this time Nurul!
So yeah, that’s to quickly summarise my months. There are so much that I wanted to write and got off my chest and my mind – it’s getting messy and cluttered in there. I’ll revisit and write more when I have the time. Just focus and hang in there!