Just finished my last event a few minutes ago. Not feeling too exhausted compared to yesterday. How’s my performance for this event? I feel that I really did my best but I could have done better. I liked my performance yesterday better than today.
What’s unlocked in this event? I broke my snatch PR from 42kg to 47kg (105lbs), I did 8 toes to bar to pull up complex, I am getting better at DUs. I know now I’ve got good muscle endurance and I’m quite strong and good at lifting. Still feeling a bit unsettled and unhappy about my performance.
Everyone was so great and supportive. People are like, you’re so strong and brave. But in my head it’s like, just go for it what are you afraid of? Maybe not everyone is as crazy as I am. It’s not bad crazy, it’s just Nurul’s crazy. I’m never naturally good at things, I got better because I go for it and put my best effort.
I think my preparation for the event sucked, I could do a lot better for first event if I had prepared for the movements. Considering that I had to submit my thesis and actually finished it as scheduled and intense training at the same time, is something to be proud of. It’s an ego thing. That’s ok. I am just human, I couldn’t possibly know what’s coming up. I’ll come back stronger! So proud of myself on how far I’ve come. I’ve got this. Just stay in my lane and move forward. Till the next competition!